Sunday, September 14, 2008

Very sad.

I'm sad. You would be too.
I could write today about the wonderful time I had in Phoenix at Creative Escape. I could write about the adventure I had driving up to see the Grand Canyon. I could write about lots of things. But today, today it's all about Charlie.

Charlie is my little girl kittycat. She's sixteen years old. And tomorrow I have to do the most awful thing to her that I could every think of doing. Charlie's "batteries are running low". That's how Simon puts it. But the truth is, is that Charlie is dying.

A few months ago the veterinarian found a mass in her stomach. They didn't know what it was, so they took x-rays and did some tests. They decided that it was a mass that couldn't be treated, it was terminal. We knew this, but thought we had more time.

About three weeks ago Charlie began to go down hill. She wouldn't eat her dried cat food so I had to feed her wet cat food by spoon. I mixed it with water and fed her bit by bit until she stopped wanting some. When I went to Creative Escape I told my husband that he needed to do this while I was gone.

When I came home from Creative Escape Charlie looked as if she took a turn for the worse. This past Thursday we called the Doctor and told them was had been going on. On Friday afternoon I brough Charlie to the veterinarian. I wrapped her in a towel and held her with one arm while I drove out the driveway. As we were pulling out she was so sweet, she looked up to me as if she was saying "I Love You", and I in return gave her a little kiss on the top of her head.

I brought her to the vet and waited for our appointment. They had to "fit" us in. Charlie and I finally saw the Doctor and he only had to take one look at Charlie and feel her stomach and he knew what was happening. She was dying. He gave me two options. One was sort of a Hospice care of cats where I would give her pain medication and steroids. The other, well we all know what that one is....

Charlie is home with me right now. We have pain medication that we have to give to her every twelve hours. We wanted to bring her home so that everyone would have one last weekend to spend with her, to love her and to let her know how much we love her.

And then on monday, I am on the one who has to say goodbye. I will be the one who will be with her when she is with the doctors. I will be the one familiar face that will be with her when she says goodbye. I'm the one who has decided that I don't want my kitty to be with strangers when she passes. And yes, I know it's my choice, but she shouldn't have to be all alone. I want her to know that I really did love her. After all the years of companionship that she has given to me, this is the one thing that I can do for her.

She will be missed.



mamichelle said...

Oh Jill, I'm so sorry about your cat! Big hugs to you.

Shannon said...


I am so sorry to hear about Charlie....I as well have been down this very same path but with a dog....big hugs and yes you are doing the right thing...she needs to be with you til the end.

Hugs to you

Juls said...

Jill, I'm sorry to hear about Charlie. You did the right thing and you loved her until the very end. Hugs to you and your family.

Paula said...

Oh Jill, I'm in tears reading your post. I'm so sorry for your loss!

George said...

Jill I am very sad for you and know how much it hurts because I miss my Harry so much. I have tears in my eyes reading your good bye. I wish that we were there with you because I know how much she means to you. George

78968400mom said...


I am sorry for what you went through today. Charlie gave you unconditional love and in return you did what was best. My htoughts are with my friend from Texas. Peace and Hugs,

Michelle from CA

Anonymous said...

hugs hugs hugs. My lower lip is quivering as I type. This touched me so! I remember it all too well for our dear Puffinstuff too. She knows you love her. But I know you need another hug too. {hug}

Mrs. Roden said...

Oh Jill! I am so sorry. I know this has been so hard for you, Simon and Sarah. Huge hugs!!!!

Your friend, Tracey

Anonymous said...

Jill, enjoyed meeting you tonight at the crop. Got to poking around and found your site. Read your post about pretty tearful thinking about your Charlie and my Priscilla. When your loss is not quite as painful check out the Rainbow Bridge. While it's get my each time I read it, I like to believe it is true. (just google Rainbow Bridge)

Look forward to cropping with you again....loved your projects tonight....hope to see them on this site.

AJ said...

heartbreaking- so very difficult- after 16 years they are family.

Kamie said...

Aww, I'm so sorry Jill. :(

{monica} said...

Hi Jill! So sorry about your cat. :hug: I met you today at Kim's and wanted to stop by and check out your blog. I also checked out your gallery on RP...CUTE stuff!